I don’t know if it’s just me but New Years makes my anxiety rocket from say a five to a ten quicker than you can say New Years. The thought of watching the count down, 3,2,1 and it’s 2019, sends shivers down my spine. I know many of you won’t understand but maybe a handful of you do. All I can think about is what could happen in the year to come. Whether loved ones will be with me this time next year, whether I’ll be better as a person or I will be the person I would hate to be. I know that I’m the only one who can ensure I don’t turn into the person who I would hate to be. But time moves so fast and it won’t stop for anyone. Even though you may feel at one point in the year that everything stops, because something has happened that makes life feel so still and empty.
Life is so precious, it’s so easy to take for granted. I’ve done it, I’m sure you have too. It’s mad that we only realise that we take it for granted when something happens that puts things into perspective. One saying I always stick by and strongly believe in, is everything happens for a reason. When something happens, that is life changing, I feel whether you’re religious or not, God or life has put that obstacle in your way for a reason. Because maybe experiencing this will help shape you into a better YOU. Help you realise that this is your life, you only have one shot so take the experience fully on board and you never know, maybe you’ll understand why this happens.
Believe in yourself, never doubt. I know for myself I probably spend the majority of my time doubting my decisions, this is something I want to change, not for anyone else but for myself. Don’t ever let anyone rule what you want to do. I feel if you truly believe in something you’ll get your head down and work for it. Unfortunately, things like this aren’t given to you on a plate, you’ve got to get on with it and face it head on.
This year I don’t want to set a resolution, because I feel that they are just empty promises to myself. They don’t mean anything to me. I just want to set myself little goals every week. To work on myself, to better myself, get rid of the fake people who wouldn’t even think twice about me. Toxic relationships – gone. I’m going to be selfish, being selfish doesn’t harm anyone. If you think, when you board a plane and the safety briefing commences, the flight attendant will explain “oxygen masks will drop from above…..put your own mask on first before anyone else’s”. This is classed as being Selfish. Selfishness isn’t a bad thing just don’t take advantage of it.
To you who is reading this. Thank you so much for this year, starting this blog has helped me in so many ways. More than you can imagine. It’s incredible to think that I’ve helped some of you reading this. This is honestly something I cannot even comprehend. I cannot believe that you’re taking time out of your day to read my posts. I’m sorry I haven’t been posting much lately, I’m hoping to get back on schedule again.
Hope you all had an incredible Christmas. And happy new year to you all! I wish you all the best take care of yourselves.
Megs xoxo (Instagram: Megjune99)